Tomorrow, I go into surgery.

It has taken less time than I thought it would but it has indeed been a long wait and build-up until this moment. Many preparations have been undertaken to give myself the best chance at a smooth recovery and I am ready. Or at least, I am confident and assured that I will be able to overcome whatever hurdles come my way by way of my preparation and support circle.

I’m not really scared going in. I’m more nervous about the post-surgery than the surgery itself, even though I haven’t had surgery since I was about four or five. I got my tonsils taken out because I couldn’t breathe well and snored when I slept. Fast forward to now and I have diagnosed sleep apnea and use a CPAP machine. Only took about twenty-five years (ᵕ—ᴗ—)

I have eight weeks off from work following my surgery because of the nature of my work. Though I am trying to prepare myself for the misery that people often experience in the first week of so post-surgery, I am looking forward to being able to detach my brain from my current place of employment as it’s the source of 98% of my stress and dissatisfaction presently. I’ve read a lot about the first week post-surgery can often bring about the post-surgery blues and the discomfort of the healing process is at its worst. I’ve also read that some people were able to return to their normal daily activities (bar the restrictions post-surgery) within the first two-to-three weeks so it will be interesting to see how quickly I move through the greatest period of discomfort. I have gone to lengths to try and mitigate potential issues as I have a poor habit of pushing myself through pain and discomfort and would very much like to not make this mistake post-surgery ( ° ᗜ ° “)

My anxiety is throwing up every worst-case scenario but I’m doing well at grounding myself back into reality. It is going to be another long phase of this journey but I’m excited! (ﾉ ˃ˋᗜˊ˂ )ﾉ