I just had one of the worst sleeps that I’ve ever had, and it is the sole reason for why I have only just woken up (been able to get out of bed). I couldn’t sleep through the night, I was tossing and turning and stressed. It was too hot and it was too cold and all of my first batches of dreams were just revisions of what I had actually been doing before going to bed and so the confusion about reality made me incredibly delirious. It was so bad that I would panic, and I sometimes I thought that maybe I had been drunk (proper wasted really). But I haven’t had any alcohol since last week. I woke up properly, eventually, and got out of bed and went to the bathroom. It was then that I could kind of figure out where the real world and my dreams were meeting, and it was then that I realised why I couldn’t sleep. Aside from the hot-cold dilemma causing me to claw at my offended eczema, I was in pain. A lot of it. They were probably the worst menstrual cramps I have ever experienced (and they were pretty bad when I was a lot younger) and it was combined with the most searing migraine I’ve ever had. It felt like it was a blood clot moving around my brain and eventually settled into a place made it feel like my eyes had fevers.

I feel a lot better after being able to get back to sleep (with a few painkillers in me), but having such a good day and then such a terrible night really took it out of me. And I still don’t feel 100. The house has all the curtains closed and

As I write this, I’m starting to feel better, and so I’m hoping to get at least half of what I was planning to do done. Thankfully, it’s only Monday. A good sleep really is important.