Things have been moving a lot more consistently recently, which is great. I still have some worries, but I think I’m really “coming into my own”. I don’t think that quite fits the bill of what I’m experiencing, but it’s the closest really. I don’t think it’s just that my mental health is at its best, but I think I have grown significantly as a person at the same time and my worth has been significantly validated recently (by this, I don’t mean self-worth but more professionally).

This week was hot. It feels like summer just started, and I’m sincerely not happy about it. I don’t hate summer for the sake of hating summer. I don’t mind the sun and I don’t mind the sunny days, I just have too many problems when it comes to the humidity and the heat. Hopefully this will be solved by living in a place that has air-con or at least has proper air-flow and the house is sealed. AMongst my problems with the heat, the biggest one is likely my skin. I have eczema, and though there’s something wrong with it every season (when it’s winter it’s dry, when it’s spring it’s set off my pollen etc.), summer is one of the hardest seasons to go through. The sweating and humidity really sets it off, in a lot of uncomfortable places … well, moving on …

I haven’t written a lot this week (although more than previous) but I have been thinking about writing a lot more, which I think is a good thing. I’ve been doing the “research” that I actually want to do rather than waiting until I feel like I know what I’m doing when starting, because, and I really should know this by now, sometimes just diving in is better than not starting. Self-driven research/learning can always be a bit long-winded when you don’t have a professional guiding you, but if you’re not able to get that guide just yet, it’s worth at least trying to take a look at what you want to know. Time wasted learning things a bit longer than others is better than time wasted waiting for the right time to learn those things.

Think about what you want to do with your life, and start pushing that snowball.