It is week 9 and I feel like I was just looking at a week 4 lecture. Next week is meant to be week 10 and then the week after that is the mid-semester—more like three-quarters-in semester—break. I have about a month until this semester finishes—OH MY WORD THERE IS ONLY A MONTH LEFT.

I’m currently taking my lunch break for my internship hours, just an hour to split two three hour slots so I can get something to eat and look away from the screen a little (though I don’t really look away from the screen as you can tell). I think my internship is going well but I’ll find out more about that when I have my mid-way review.

There are a couple of things that I’ve been doing that were incorrect and are now glaringly obvious (em dashes, en dashes, hyphens oh my), but I’m trying to make sure I take on everything that’s critiques about my work.

Right now:

51/100 Hours

After the assignment that is due this Friday, I have about five assignments left (I say “about” five because there are technically six but one of them is my industry supervisor evaluation which isn’t completed by me). Three of these assignments are due on the same day—*weakly* yayyy—and then I have an exam in mid-November.

It’s overwhelming to think that I’ll be having my graduation ceremony in about two months and half of it is exhilaration and the other half is horror. I’ve already talked a lot about my feelings about graduating and what comes after that but I’m really starting to feel it beyond just underlying stress. I think I’m feeling it more but am less stressed about it now, if that makes sense. Mostly because I’m past the initial freak-out stage and am more confident that I’ll be okay afterwards.

What I haven’t considered is that I’m just trying to resist the change as well (although I might have mentioned this and just can’t remember). Aside from the worry about work or income, it’s also going to be a big change. I won’t be a student anymore, I won’t be financially supported as a student, and I won’t have deadlines and streams of support. A lot is going to change between now and next year and I honestly don’t know what I’ll be doing or where I’ll be this time in 2021. I know where I would like to be and what I’d like to be doing but I can never guarantee anything … so instead I should just be thinking of what I can do to get there.