Sometimes juggling the different aspects of my life feels like a chore, and that’s just because I was juggling with only three balls and then realised I actually had so many at my feet that I’d forgotten to pick up. And sometimes I only pick up half the ball.

These past few weeks have been my busiest of the year (maybe of my degree) and I can’t tell whether it’s because of Covid-19 or because I’m just getting myself together in a couple of different aspects. Basically just scooping up all the things I’ve let go for too long and now it’s just overwhelming to get them done. That’s why you need to do stuff in the moment. So time doesn’t catch up to you and beat you down with rolls of your to-do lists.

Take a deep breath and get to it. There’s always going to be hurdles, but the more you take them, the better you get.

Student

I just finished my publishing proposal yesterday and my next assignment is due not this Tuesday but Tuesday next. The publishing proposal was something that I just kept forgetting about and didn’t have a satisfactory piece to use for it, and so I stumbled a lot trying to get it together, but it was an important experience and I’ve received an important understanding of the industry from it.

My current focus will be my critical essay for my psych class, which is another lit-review *sad face*.

Class	Assessment Task	Week	Start Week	Due Date
KKB341	Phase 1: CV and Cover Letter	1	O	24th July
KKB341	Phase 1: OH&S Online Quiz	2	1	31st July
KKB341	Phase 1: Proposed Internship Role	4	2	12th August
KKB193	AT1: Literature Review	5	2	19th August
KKB341	Phase 2: Workplace Module 1	4~	2	7 days from placement start
KWB326	AT1: Publishing Proposal	6	4	28th August
PYB100	AT1: Essay	8	6	8th September
KKB193	AT2: Research Methodology	9	6	18th September
PYB100	AT2: Exam	13	C	23rd October
KKB341	Phase 4: Oral Presentation	11	9	To be decided
KWB326	AT2: Creative Work	13	C	23rd October
KKB193	AT3: Research Proposal	13	10	23rd October
KKB341	Phase 3: Workplace Module 2	13	13	23rd October
KKB341	Phase 4: Industry Partner Evaluation	14	NA

I had my fourth day of my internship yesterday. I’m still loving what I’m doing and would love to enter the publishing industry once I graduate, but I have learned a valuable lesson of intermittent small breaks to rest my eyes. Reading for hours on end, especially when I’m re-reading the same 300 page story can be exhausting. It’s all digital as well, so it’s put more strain on my eyes than I had thought it would. I just need to make sure I’m doing my eye exercises.

Even though I’ve only had four days, I’ve already learned so much that I’m kind of gobsmacked by it. It’s really just an eye-opener about the difference between what I know and what I apply. Especially when it comes to stylistics and editing. The process of looking at works and finding the appropriate balance between “what is good” and “what suits the publisher” is also an interesting and slightly difficult task. It’s not that I don’t have any idea of what the publishing house that I’m interning for wants, but remembering that something I think is a great read doesn’t automatically make it suitable for the publisher is something that I need to be constantly thinking about and reflecting on.

24/100 Hours

Employee

I only work once a week now because of my schedule but sometimes it feels like such a chore, which is not the best mindset to have towards it. I’m also surprised that I’m feeling this way about it considering I actually love my current job. I think it’s just exhaustion seeping into other areas of my life. Like corruption spilling out of a cursed object that I need to correct. It’s easy enough to tell myself that I’m being unreasonable by not wanting to go considering it’s an income and I only work once a week but that’s where I’m at right now, although when I’m there I don’t feel the same.

Writer

There are a couple of aspects of myself as a writer that I’ve been neglecting. I go through extensive periods of feeling inadequate as a writer, as if I’m never going to progress further than I am now. But I think that’s normal and probably more common amongst artists than I think.

There are a lot of different things I want to do and explore and I just spend my time flailing my hands rather than actually committing to any of it and I need to fix that. I think my problem is that I want to do so many different things and feel like I need to do them all at once and so then don’t really finish any of them.

Patient

Now that I’m trying to get my health together, I’ve been in and out of the hospital, in and out of the doctors and now I have a lot of referral things to sort out. It’s so strange that I need to remember to take care of my body. I’m now a lot better at taking care of my mind but my physical health needs work too.

Dungeon Master

I forget that I do this once a week sometimes, and as this is my first real campaign, I’m still fumbling a little and moments where I’m really just winging it. I’ve learned to not prep for my sessions because those are proportionally more enjoyable for the players than the ones I plan out. Though sometimes I forget that this doesn’t mean I should forget to prepare the basics, like maps of cities I know they’re about to visit …

Person

I have a lot of different hobbies. I’m kind of like a jack-of-all-trades and yet a master-of-none. There are so many things that I’d like to do but trying to make time for them at the moment is a bit of a disaster. Some of them are skill-based, and so I want to dedicate a lot of time to them to learn but really don’t have that time at the moment … or I waste it by getting distracted. Making cosplay props, general craft, origami, learning different languages (Spanish and Japanese at the moment), dioramas, drawing, digital painting, gardening etc. Those are just some of the hobbies that I want to do that I have done in the past. There are a lot of new things that I want to learn but just haven’t sat down to do so.

I have a habit of thinking of all the things I want to do and all the things I have to do and singing”so much to do, so much to do, so much to do today~” to the melody of ‘Elmo’s World’.

Na-na na-na, na-na na-na, Elmo’s World~

I can’t believe that’s my “gotta get sh*t done” mantra. I only just realised where the melody was from when I was writing this post. I did love Elmo as a kid. Him and Mr Noodle.