These past two weeks have been bizarre. I’ve found myself fatigued for most of it and just a bit brain-dead. I can’t tell if it’s because of the sudden jump back into work and uni or if it’s something else underlying, probably something underlying considering my recent dreams have been uncomfortable. No nice fantasies that I write down and think about writing about but just stressful dreams where I’m in strange and anxious positions. It has been a week. And it feels like a Monday.

I’m moving forward with my internship (WILS) process but have already started falling behind in terms of making sure I’m keeping up with my summaries and my readings. So, that’s what I’m going to do this weekend. I’m going to make sure that I catch up to where I need to be and making a headstart on my assignments, while trying to make sure I’m writing regular things at the same time.

I’ve been thinking about the larger assessments that I’ll be working on over the course of this semester as they’re both driven by what I want to write about. One is research-based and I have to choose a question surrounding an issue and the other is another writing project. I thought I knew what I was going to write for my writing project but now I’m not so sure. I also haven’t quite been able to narrow down my question for my research project. It’s always a little difficult when I’m given free reign of what I’m allowed to writed about. So many options and I run away with a dozen different ideas.

I’m writing up a schedule guide for this weekend again and hopefully I’ll be able to lose this clouded head and get some work done. I can switch it on for when I’m at work but sitting down in front of my own computer to do my own things sometimes is just such an effort. My cognitive processing seems to be pretty slow and fuzzy, and it’s been something that’s been on the decline for the past year and so have been thinking of seeing a doctor about it in case it’s something serious. People close to me have also noticed it increasing in severity (inability to string together sentences, poor memory, spacey, forgetting sense of time or place) and have started telling me to go and see someone in case. I just don’t want to go, find out there is nothing wrong and then have no idea what the actual issue is.

Anywho, week 3 is just around the corner and my first graded assessment task is due in week 4. This weekend will be about hitting the books, getting those files downloaded, getting my work done and putting enough time in to be working on my personal projects and looking closely at my self-development before I go into my internship.

I need to find out how to take a break without wasting anymore time!