When I can’t write, it’s not a great feeling. Writing is everything to me. But sometimes there are just times where I don’t seem to want to write and I don’t know how to overcome it. Not wanting to write blog content or do assignments is pretty standard but when I don’t want to write anything at all, that’s when I kind of start to worry and wonder if it’s something internal, even if I’m telling myself dry periods are fine to have and that I shouldn’t get so depressed over them. I’m trying not to keep starting new ideas and give myself some focus but it’s making me wonder if I don’t like doing that.

Or maybe it’s because I have my final assignments due this Friday and critiques due tomorrow and so I’m trying to disengage from life for a little bit. It might be that too. This semester has been stressful in an entirely different way to my first semester. I haven’t had to worry about the anxiety of group assignments or attending classes but it was really just replaced with a different form of anxiety and a strange lack of motivation. I thought that maybe it was a case of the novelty of attending university was wearing off but I think I’m more excited about being a university student than I was in the first year. I liked the novelty of it in the first year but now I’m trying to actually enjoy the experience.

I think I need to properly pay attention to my side projects when I don’t feel like writing as a way to distract me from it. Only issue is that: if I don’t feel like writing, I probably don’t feel like doing anything else. I do have quite a number of projects I want to work on, so I should probably try and force myself into one of those for the time being.

Being a writer is more complicated than I thought it would be. I think it’s because I’m not just writing for myself anymore. I’m trying to think of a way I can successfully turn it into a career.

Well, those are just my thoughts at the moment.