Semester 2 has begun and I actually went to all of my classes on the first day. Surprisingly, the lectures were kind of empty. Normally they’re full for the first three weeks and then people stop coming but I could have had both of my lectures in tutorial rooms.

But, as a testament to my productivity (I still have posts on the backburner that I was meant to do ages ago and said I would), this post is being continued two days later. I was on a roll for a while, and now I’m just kind of rolling around.

Going to my lectures felt good and they were interesting, even though they were only introductory lectures. I did get a little frustrated, however, because I often feel like I’m being told “you can’t be a writer if you want to write how you do” but that might just be the little demon in my head speaking… that and my attempts at being different often being rebuffed against the conformity. That’s why I’ve always disliked the English subject compared to other subjects. It boggles my mind that one teacher will give me 100/100 for something another will give me 60/100 for. But that’s the point of it I guess. It being ‘interpretive’ and all.

University is surprisingly lonely now. I have an issue ‘connecting’ with people. I can be polite and friendly but because of how many times I’ve moved around, I got to the point where I was saying “why bother?” But now, being at uni without anyone to talk to while I’m there, I’m a lot more hopeful that I’ll make friends, or at least be consistently friendly with some of the people there. I realised that, when I leave my place of employment, my circle of people is limited to my partner and my family.

*sigh* I’ll update again later, for now, I just need to make sure I do my prep/study/work properly. Let me not burn out in this semester, gods of creativity.